Yay... life sucks.

And I dunno why, but I'm really angry... and depressed.

Maybe this ish a lesson teaching me that I loose any friends I make.

Tara.  Gone, lost, treated me badly.
Steph.  No idea what happened, just... a summer I guess?
Tori.  So hard to talk to you now.  I've screwed up so many times.
Everyone else.  Same as Tor's.

-sigh-

Sorry.

     So for the past few weeks, months a year?  what ever, I've had this really nasty feeling o' not fitting in.  You all know how that ish.  It's just last night, it really sunk in.  I hadn't hung out with Tori or Trav in forever... so different now, and they've all got this  invisable understanding, o' things they've done.  I miss that, but there ish no way that can be achived again.
     I don't see how things like 'flirting' and things that people say should offend me and such ish funny.  I really don't.  I find it stupid and not appealing.   Maybe I've just changed, but you know, I don't think I've ever found that stuff funny.  Maybe I never really know esactly what you guys are talking 'bout and I miss the funny.  I dunno.
     Maybe Tori was right, 'Devan got a boyfriend' and dissapeared from all o' the social world, but if that keeps me from that stuff, I'm glad I've got Sam.
     This has also, somehow, brought up how stupid I am.  All o' my 'friends' or what used to be them, are all really smart.  Good grades, great test scores, placed in the super smart classes...  The best I've done ish two years o' enrichment summer school... that's it, and that's when school was really easy and it's not hard to get a 3.0 in 3rd and 4th grade or when ever that was...
     I don't have alot o' interesting things to say.  I'm not that fun to talk to, really shows you how good you're to talk to when the only phone calls you get are to invite you places.  I end up having to call anyone just to talk, and even when I do that I'm like compleatly ignored, save special circumstances.
    Maybe dad's right and I've 'matured' faster than others.  Yah, me saying all this crap ish really mature. -.-
        No one would have missed me if I hadn't have gone last night.  No one noticed me last night, enless they wanted to joke 'bout that stupid stuff.
    So tired o' it.  It's been like that since 6th grade.  A sixth grader isn't s'ppose to be using bad words and gah...

Why not?

A Days:
Western Civ:  Sam!  Wooh!  I havn't had a class with him since 8th grade algebra, as I am not gifted enough to get into the silly smart classes.  -sigh-  Shall be fun, Ms. Vinsion ish cool.  And Tim... grrr...
MicroComp:  One person I know, Jennifer Michael.  'Tis alright I s'ppose, seems like a super easy class though.
Lunch:  People, might kill me, but they're all cool people.  -noddles-  -misses the Sam-
German:  Ummm...  It's a class, that Devan enjoys.  And NO MORE SHAWN!
Physical Science:  The teacher I wanted.  YAY! No one I really know though.

B Days:
English:  Mrs. Evan ish too hyper for the mornings.
Seminair:  Icky Tim and Sam.  Grrr... But I get to read.
Lunch: Spiffy people including, the Tori, the Caitlin, the Laurie, the Jon, the Amanda, and the Eric?  -sigh-
Orchestra:  We have aquired the Benett.  Wooh!
Geometry: Cacey? Ashlee, and Steph.  -dances- 

So,  I'm pretty happy with my schedule, a few things I would change though.

Went out to eat with my Father, and Mother.  Was alright.  Talked with Dad 'bout religion and such, was cool.  Then being jealous o' the Sam for his made math skills.  -sniffle-  Played DDR  (the other creepy thing, not the one with the teribble arrows that are all diagnal like but..)  with a guy who works at the arcade at the Casino, named Miko?  Maybe?  Was kinda fun and I didn't die o' people fearness!  I'm very proud o' myself, I sucked yesh, but...  -smiles-  They guy also gave me 23 tickets, used them to get three really weird rings and a plastic spider.  Was planning on giving the spider to Sam, lost it on the elevator... -sniffles-

I GOT AN AMAZING LIGHTSABER!  You know the really expencive one from Border's?  It was on sale for 59.99, at SunCost,  Devan bought it.  -dance with it-  Ish so amazing!  ^^

Sleepy time.

||Devlin||

For Sarah:

I am reading Dragon Spell.  Its a book found in the religious section o' Border's.  Wooh!